I Need to Write My “Next Chapter”!

It’s clear that I’m alive!  However, being alive and living are not the same.

That’s where I’m at in life:  Alive, but not living!

While I enjoyed my life from 2009-2016, the world was changing around me.  But, I didn’t see it — until it was too late!

There were a couple of profound things underway that would shatter my world.  One happened in the fall of 2016 and the other just three months later in February 2017.

Honestly, like millions of others, my life changed forever on November 8, 2016.

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While many moved on, the cracks in my armor surfaced and my seemingly happy life quickly disintegrated into chaos!

Without a second thought following an argument, my eight-year relationship (and five-year marriage) was over.  But that wouldn’t be the biggest mistake — the worst decision of my life was taking a job and relocating to Panama City, Florida!

Spending a year there was deplorable!  I maintained my sanity by meeting a very dear couple, Cathy and Gerard, and my neighbor, Diane!

This song summed up my life in 2017 and ended up being my favorite song of the year!

For those of you that don’t click on videos, here are the lyrics from “Silence” that touched me the most.

♪♪♪”I’m in need of a savior, but I’m not asking for favors
My whole life, I’ve felt like a burden
I think too much, and I hate it
I’m so used to being in the wrong, I’m tired of caring
Loving never gave me a home, so I’ll sit here in the silence”♪♪♪

That temporary savior came in March of 2018 when I landed a job in Duluth, Minnesota, and relocated there in June.

While much happier than in Florida, I’m still not where I need to be and I know something needs to change.  And, that something is me!

It’s time to start outlining and writing “The Next Chapter”!

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I feel that I need to do something while I’m still healthy and still young enough to start over again because we never really know how much time we have left!

I don’t want to be a really old man and be saddled with regrets that I could have done something about.

I read this quote in a book the other day and it makes perfect sense, “Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do.  So throw off the bowlines.  Sail away from the safe harbor.  Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

With that being said, I’m coming up on a milestone and I’ve been thinking way too much about mortality.

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My father lived 55 years, 3 months, and 23 days.  For me to match that, I only have to make it to February 5, 2020.

If I only live that long, then it’s too late to change much.

However, I could live as long as my idol, President Jimmy Carter.  He’s living it up and he’s 94.7 years old!

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After he reached the highest level in an American political career, he left the White House on January 20, 1981, at the young age of 56 years, 111 days.

And, he’s accomplished so much in the almost four decades that followed when most people are just thinking of retirement.

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In life, I’ve only made two real spontaneous decisions.  As it turned out, both were the best decisions I’ve ever made!

The first was moving away from small town Kentucky where I grew up to Chicago in the summer of 1994.  This kick-started my television career two years later.

In 2002, I decided to leave television for two more years in Chicago.

That time around, I had fun bartending and living life.  After a break, I got back into television, went back to school for my meteorology certification and I earned the “Seal of Approval” from the National Weather Association.

I love traveling and I’ve been fortunate to be able to see the world (well, 16 countries)!  Most recently, I added Morocco…

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and Thailand to the list!

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However, even when jetting off to some exotic location, “reality” is still waiting when those trips are over.

So, I’ll have to be spontaneous again and start living!

As this summer turns into a long Minnesota winter, I’ll enjoy every snowflake.  And, come spring 2020, I’ll proudly take to heart the words of my favorite Robert Frost poem, “Stopping By Woods on a Snowy Evening”.

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I’ll take a gamble on life again!

Anthony

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31 responses to this post.

  1. Wow! Great blog! Wishing you all the happiness in the word! Get a pug!

    Renne Whitmore Co-Director DE Paranormal Research Group

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  2. Posted by Roxanne Ferguson on June 7, 2019 at 6:08 am

    Growing up, you had to be sensitive and an over-thinker to survive. I hope your world is safer now so that you can follow your heart .

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    • Roxanne,

      Thank you very much!

      I hope you always remember that you had such a profound influence on the person I’ve become — not just professionally, but personally, as well.

      Take care and stay in touch!

      AP

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  3. Posted by Jody Ross on June 7, 2019 at 6:24 am

    Hope you find what you are looking for! Why not head back to the Cities cause we miss you! Have a great Friday! Hugs

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  4. Posted by Kimberly Taylor on June 7, 2019 at 6:45 am

    Always wishing you the best Anthony

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  5. Posted by Sherry Meister on June 7, 2019 at 6:46 am

    Oh Anthony, this is great! You have a way with words. I don’t know you personally but just from reading your posts, you are such a kind & compassionate person! Praying for your next steps. What’s that quote? One thing that we can always be certain of……. CHANGE!! I don’t always like change but going thru some things in my life, I’m realizing that change can be good. There’s no victory that didn’t first start as a problem. It’s in the valleys that we find out who we are & who others are as well. It’s where we are stretched & where we grow. We usually don’t grow in our comfort zone. Go set the world on fire!! You were created by God to do amazing things! There’s only one of YOU. No one can fulfill the exact purpose that God has for you. God is with you every step of the way. I pray you are blessed in your journey & you feel his peace & love. Keep smiling!!! 😁😁😁

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    • Sherry,

      Thank you for taking the time to read my blog and for the kind words.

      Your post was very compelling and I wish only the best for you, too, my friend.

      I will keep smiling 🙂 and you do the same!

      AP

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  6. Posted by Pam Hofstetter on June 7, 2019 at 7:51 am

    Wonderful!

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  7. Posted by Mrs. Camille Castellanos Crossley on June 7, 2019 at 12:30 pm

    Anthony,
    I truly enjoyed reading this article. You are an open book and I love that about you!
    Your openness and willingness to share your achievements and struggles is an endearing quality and one to treasure.
    I think you should write a book and go around the Country as a Motivational Speaker. A lot of people need to hear what you have to say.

    Lots of Love from an old friend,
    Camille xxx

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    • Camille,

      Thank you very much for taking the time to read my article and for sharing your kind and encouraging words.

      I think being open is the only way to go.

      Ironically enough, I started writing a book in the 1990s and stopped in 1996. I was going to print it for my family and close friends. Maybe one day, I’ll finish it.

      I wish you the very best in life and love, my friend. I’ll always cherish those 2 years in Chicago when I met you guys. 🙂

      Love,
      AP

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  8. Posted by Andy on June 7, 2019 at 4:21 pm

    Great post! Bright and exciting things are ahead, I’m sure of it! Adventure awaits!

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  9. Posted by Donna Libby on June 7, 2019 at 4:39 pm

    I don’t usually say ,”I told you so” but I told my daughter, Meg, when you announced you were leaving the Cities that there was “trouble in River City”, meaning in the romance department. My heart plummeted when it became apparent I was correct. This was one time I prayed I was wrong! You are such a warm, caring sensitive human being, Anthony, & I have learned so much from you. Sometimes we get hurt to the very core of our soul, but God finds a way to keep us going because He has a better plan for us. I can’t wait for this ‘next chapter’! I’m certain it will be worth waiting for. The perfect significant other is just around the corner & is waiting with open arms. Keep sharing your thoughts, Anthony. You are such an inspiration to us & we still have much to learn. Your #1 fan in the Midwest.

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    • Donna,

      You were very right. Thank you very much for the kind words.

      I’m glad you’re there to see what I’m doing or talking about next! 🙂

      Have a great summer, my friend.

      AP

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  10. Posted by Connie Huizenga on June 7, 2019 at 9:56 pm

    Anthony, I see an amazing future, adventure, and happiness for you in your future. Enjoy every snow flake and blossom. Take a walk in the woods and along the shore. Be happy with you because you are remarkable. I am happy to call you friend.

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  11. Posted by Janet Robinson on June 8, 2019 at 6:29 am

    Loved the honesty in your article! You are such a great guy and FB friend. I wish you all the happiness in your future! You are right time waits for no one non of us know how long we have here just have to make the most of it now! Have a great weekend!

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  12. Posted by Sandie Foster on June 8, 2019 at 8:57 pm

    Anthony,

    I just read your blog. You have the world in your hands, and you do what makes you happy. I do know that you are truly missed in the Quad Cities, and hoping one day that you will return. I plan to follow up on your blog. You take care of yourself. Just remember, you are one terrific guy and anyone would be lucky to have you in their life.

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  13. Posted by Dee on August 1, 2019 at 10:05 am

    💜💙💜

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  14. Posted by Connie Sharpe on August 1, 2019 at 10:53 am

    You have led an interesting life, and will make many more interesting moments! It has to take guts to up and move, never knowing how things will turn out. I feel badly for you, reading how much pain and heartbreak you have endured, and hope and pray you will find the happiness, love, and contentment you so richly deserve. Perhaps something will turn up again in the Quad Cities, the home you love, and you can enjoy the best of all worlds; having your home base there, and traveling and having adventures. Whatever you do, please take care of yourself!

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    • Connie S,

      Thank you very much for checking out my “therapy” blog about life and moments.

      Don’t feel bad, it’s a learning experience.

      I’m excited about the future and I wish the best for me and for all of my friends.

      Take care, my friend,
      AP

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  15. Posted by Connie Huizenga on August 1, 2019 at 6:43 pm

    Anthony, I am excited to see what is waiting for you. That special someone will have to be special to match up to you. The world is better with you in it and I am better with a friend like you. I can’t wait to see your smile reach your eyes again. Miss you.

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    • Connie H,

      I’m excited and I’m happy that my friends are, too.

      As for that “special someone”, while that would be great, I’m more about living and training my pug properly. 🙂

      About the world being better, that is very sweet of you to say. I’m just me. What you see is what you get. I’m lucky to have friends like you.

      Take care and I miss you guys, too.

      AP

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