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My Struggle Before Winter Is Real!

Aging comes with different obstacles and changes in our body.

Since I’m not an expert with the female body (yes, I’m laughing inside now that might just become an “LOL”), I’ll talk from a male perspective — mine!

I know metabolism slows down and aging skin lacks the elasticity a younger body provides.

It’s easy noticing graying hair, more wrinkles and your clothes fitting tighter, but that evil Facebook really drove home the changes for me!  And, I’m not even talking about Anthony in his 20s or 30s!

Since “Memories” are a sidebar option, I take advantage of it sometimes to see what I was doing over the past ten years on a particular day.

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That picture was around Labor Day 2010 after being caught in a Chicago thunderstorm following a Scissor Sisters concert and I was 46!

And then, just two years later, there’s this one.

July 6 2012

I still look at those pictures and think that I looked pretty sexy even as I was closing in on 50!

Yet, at the same time, I can still hear Harvey Fierstein getting into drag as Arnold Becker in “Torch Song Trilogy”:  “I think my biggest problem is being young and beautiful. It’s my biggest problem because I’ve never been young and beautiful. Oh, I’ve been beautiful. And God knows I’ve been young, but never the twain have met.”

Life changes can also make a big difference in one’s appearance!

I feel the changes in my physical appearance accelerated following my separation, divorce and moving away from the Quad Cities!

I really noticed it after my first Duluth, Minnesota winter that lasted nine months!

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That, along with a major schedule change of moving to evenings after years of working mornings (in bed by 7 p.m. to be up at 2 a.m).

With my new hours, I don’t cook as often and I’m now eating late at night.  That combination is a big mistake!

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Since moving to Duluth, I’ve gained ten pounds!

Now that I’ve returned from my endless enjoyable buffets and cocktail-filled Las Vegas trip, I’m getting on the scale and slimming down before winter settles in again!

I’m going to cook more, eat less and have meals at more sensible hours!

I’ll start by taking my dinner to work and eating hours before bedtime!  This will cut back on my late night wine, cheese and crackers and late night dinners.

Now I’ll still treat myself to a drink or two when I get home — without the meal!

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As a recovering food addict, I struggle daily with weight gain of even a pound or two and the ever present fear of falling off the wagon!

It’s pretty sad when you have to fight the logic of knowing that bingeing and purging would be the easier route to take — eat all you want and purge = instant weight loss!

However, I know how detrimental that is to one’s body!

So, I’ll do it the healthy way, even if it’s a tough fight!

By the way, I’ve been talking a lot this summer about writing my next chapter.  If you didn’t get a chance to read that, here it is again for you!  (It’ll open in a new window!)

https://anthonypeoples.wordpress.com/2019/06/07/i-need-to-write-my-next-chapter/

Anthony

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