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I Need to Write My “Next Chapter”!

It’s clear that I’m alive!  However, being alive and living are not the same.

That’s where I’m at in life:  Alive, but not living!

While I enjoyed my life from 2009-2016, the world was changing around me.  But, I didn’t see it — until it was too late!

There were a couple of profound things underway that would shatter my world.  One happened in the fall of 2016 and the other just three months later in February 2017.

Honestly, like millions of others, my life changed forever on November 8, 2016.

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While many moved on, the cracks in my armor surfaced and my seemingly happy life quickly disintegrated into chaos!

Without a second thought following an argument, my eight-year relationship (and five-year marriage) was over.  But that wouldn’t be the biggest mistake — the worst decision of my life was taking a job and relocating to Panama City, Florida!

Spending a year there was deplorable!  I maintained my sanity by meeting a very dear couple, Cathy and Gerard, and my neighbor, Diane!

This song summed up my life in 2017 and ended up being my favorite song of the year!

For those of you that don’t click on videos, here are the lyrics from “Silence” that touched me the most.

♪♪♪”I’m in need of a savior, but I’m not asking for favors
My whole life, I’ve felt like a burden
I think too much, and I hate it
I’m so used to being in the wrong, I’m tired of caring
Loving never gave me a home, so I’ll sit here in the silence”♪♪♪

That temporary savior came in March of 2018 when I landed a job in Duluth, Minnesota, and relocated there in June.

While much happier than in Florida, I’m still not where I need to be and I know something needs to change.  And, that something is me!

It’s time to start outlining and writing “The Next Chapter”!

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I feel that I need to do something while I’m still healthy and still young enough to start over again because we never really know how much time we have left!

I don’t want to be a really old man and be saddled with regrets that I could have done something about.

I read this quote in a book the other day and it makes perfect sense, “Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do.  So throw off the bowlines.  Sail away from the safe harbor.  Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

With that being said, I’m coming up on a milestone and I’ve been thinking way too much about mortality.

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My father lived 55 years, 3 months, and 23 days.  For me to match that, I only have to make it to February 5, 2020.

If I only live that long, then it’s too late to change much.

However, I could live as long as my idol, President Jimmy Carter.  He’s living it up and he’s 94.7 years old!

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After he reached the highest level in an American political career, he left the White House on January 20, 1981, at the young age of 56 years, 111 days.

And, he’s accomplished so much in the almost four decades that followed when most people are just thinking of retirement.

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In life, I’ve only made two real spontaneous decisions.  As it turned out, both were the best decisions I’ve ever made!

The first was moving away from small town Kentucky where I grew up to Chicago in the summer of 1994.  This kick-started my television career two years later.

In 2002, I decided to leave television for two more years in Chicago.

That time around, I had fun bartending and living life.  After a break, I got back into television, went back to school for my meteorology certification and I earned the “Seal of Approval” from the National Weather Association.

I love traveling and I’ve been fortunate to be able to see the world (well, 16 countries)!  Most recently, I added Morocco…

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and Thailand to the list!

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However, even when jetting off to some exotic location, “reality” is still waiting when those trips are over.

So, I’ll have to be spontaneous again and start living!

As this summer turns into a long Minnesota winter, I’ll enjoy every snowflake.  And, come spring 2020, I’ll proudly take to heart the words of my favorite Robert Frost poem, “Stopping By Woods on a Snowy Evening”.

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I’ll take a gamble on life again!

Anthony

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