Posts Tagged ‘sadness’

Look For The Silver Lining & Not The Cloud

This blog is not about weather.  However, I’m going to quickly mention it.  From a statistical standpoint, the middle of January is the coldest part of the winter.

Frosty Cold

This time of the year, you probably notice some people are more depressed.  It may have nothing to do with boyfriends or girlfriends, their life or lack of a life, or their financial situation.  Those people could not only be sad, but they could be suffering from “seasonal affective disorder”, or SAD.

Here’s what the Mayo Clinic says about it:  “a type of depression that occurs at the same time every year. If you’re like most people with seasonal affective disorder, your symptoms start in the fall and may continue into the winter months, sapping your energy and making you feel moody. Less often, seasonal affective disorder causes depression in the spring or early summer.”

Those people are excluded from what I’m talking about today.

Positive Thinking

I consider myself an “optimist”.  I always try to think that the best things will happen for me, my loved ones, and for mankind.  With that being said, I really consider myself a “realist”.  And, not only do I try to live my life that way, I’ll always tell you the way it is.  I’ve made people cry before and then I feel guilty.  Yes, I’ve made people cry!  I confess.

And, I shed tears, too.  Back at Murray State University, as a 20-year-old, I remember crying to “Can’t Fight This Feeling” by REO Speedwagon, and pining for a boy who out of my reach and wondering if I would ever find someone “like me”.  I can listen to that song now without being sad, but I still think back to those days in the mid-1980s.

I cried when my mother died 22 years ago and I remember the very dark years that followed.  The loss of my mother, turning down my first career job to move home, being single, and battling bulimia were great burdens and allowed little happiness in my life.

That was then and this is now.  That is why I’d never want to be in my 20s again and I sympathize with those trying to find themselves in their 20s.  I love my 40s and I can’t wait to see what my 50s bring in a couple of years.  Don’t do the math!   Use the brain cells for something else. 🙂

Cozumel December 22

This is a picture I took December 22, 2012, somewhere out in the western Caribbean after we left Cozumel and were cruising slowly back to reality.

When I see this, as I do in life, I see the sun breaking through the clouds.  Many people only see the clouds.  And, when you’re part of a mammoth social network like Facebook, you see “the clouds” a lot more in people’s posts.

I never want to paint it that my life is perfect.  It isn’t, but it’s mine.  I get agitated. I get bored.  And, that boredom, especially since I haven’t been working, leads to thinking — which sometimes makes me sad.

ABBAAnthonyBD2011

Additionally, it’s closing in on a year now since Miss ABBA crossed the “rainbow bridge” and left us.  I think of her a thousand times a day.  But, I don’t cry anymore about her.  I smile now thinking of that goofy golden.  I think of all of the wonderful days we had together.

When she first died, I thought about the times I had scolded her when she was bad.  And, it took me months to know that she needed to be disciplined at the time.  I don’t dwell on those times anymore.  I only think of the wonderful times we shared because that was our life.

Looking Ahead

I took this majestic picture on Spirit Lake two years ago.  Looking out over this frozen tundra made me realize that life is too short to dwell on all of the negatives in our life.  We all have them.  I have friends that are struggling to pay rent, feed their families, make utility payments, and I have some friends that would rather just be negative about any situation.

Tomorrow, I’m making a quick trip to Chicago to help an old friend that has destroyed their life by making a stupid decision two years ago.  This has resulted in losing their job and career, losing touch with their family, several run-ins with the Chicago Police Department, and now, financial ruin and depression.

I know going there tomorrow will not change anything for my friend.  My friend has to take responsibility.  No one else can do that for them.  When something bad happens to good people, it takes more energy to fight back than to accept defeat. I never want to know that I didn’t give it my all in life.  And, that’s why I’ll always smile through the tears.

I hope this quick trip to Chicago gives my friend the courage, the conviction, and the strength to fight.  If you’re in this situation, I hope you find that same courage, conviction, and strength.

As for me, I miss television and I miss forecasting weather.  It was so much fun to fill in for my old friend, Neil Kastor, and do radio weather the past three days for WSDR in Sterling, Illinois.  While I’m still angry at WQAD for their decision not to renew my contract, I know that something good is coming my way this spring.  I’ll wait out the storm and I’ll keep my positive attitude.

When it happens, you can call me Stefano DiMera, of “Days of Our Lives”.  That man has been killed off so many times and like the Phoenix, he rises from the flames.

ABBA December 2010

I want to live my life and I want my friends to live their lives like Miss ABBA.  This picture was taken three months before she was diagnosed with terminal cancer.  When she was given two to three months to live, we had the best two to three months living life to the fullest.  Those three months turned into ten months and she never wavered one day with sadness or sickness until the day before she died.

Miss ABBA, you’re my inspiration.

And, I hope I can relay that inspiration to the people I care about the most.  Smile, my friends, and look for the silver lining.  We only live once.

Anthony

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